I do have a chance today to look back at this blog since last August, there’s about 5-6 posts up till now, which is quite rare because I love writing and sharing my thoughts up here. Yes, I’ve been busily hiding and running away from my reality so that’s why I wasn’t enjoy life so much. I always behave this way whenever things turn to a different direction, it takes me months just to adjust myself to fit in the new situation, to make up my mind completely and to start being productive again. There’s something I hate to admit, that I was so wrong in some decisions, the way I treated myself in each situations was so insane. Until a couple days ago, after months fighting with my freaking mind, life seems to be breathable again.
I don’t know how, but the calmness in my soul is back. It’s back when I was retouching some photos and listening to my favorite songs this afternoon. Maybe this is not the last episode of the depression series, but it’s a new season coming up, I think of being back to my hobbies and start to enjoy my life again. People who knows me well can always see me in such terrible mood and I always play the game of pretending – oh this one I don’t want to stop doing, hah.
So for the catch up, I was at Phuket in my last post, then Hongkong in Dec and the latest trip was to Laos and Thailand. The cancelation of my trip to Chiang Mai and Chiang Rai last Oct is still eating me up inside (what was I thinking exactly? What the hell was going on with me at that time that led me to such stupid decision? Now I’m still wondering…)
Ok then, this is it.